This is a very serious post and should therefore be read with caution.
Over the past year I have been doing better than I ever have mentally. My confidence was through the roof, my depression and anxiety were basically gone and I finally could express myself the way I always wanted to.
But.... the past few days have had me barely functional. There's no use in hiding what I am going through:
I have an Anxiety relapse
I am unable to go to work, be relaxed or really enjoy things that I love. It's never been this bad. I thought I had beaten my problems, but in reality it was just in hiding, waiting for the perfect time to strike. It has now.
I just needed to vent somewhere. I know that I will be able to do this, but it will take time. If you are going through something similar, breathe. It takes time. It will get better.